I scarcely know where to begin, but you all deserve an explanation. A letter seems the best method as it does not require you to be anywhere near me. I understand your wariness, your distrust and even your anger. I deserve no less. My apologies don’t undo the damage I’ve done. They will likely ring hollow in your ears. I don’t even know the extent of the trouble I’ve caused and so I cannot even begin to make amends. Yet it needs to be said. I regret everything, I am sorry for all of it, I repent of all my actions.
Below you will find my account of everything that has happened to me since I left you in Wayreach. I hope you find it helpful as you discern what is to be done with me.
On the way back from the battle with Rashid at the Corbin farm Kal’Dan spoke to me for the second time (you’ll remember that he approached me in Cor Ferrea as Simon). This time he told me if I didn’t leave Wayreach he would tell the Red Friars where I was. In hindsight I’m sure now that he wanted me out of the fight at the Monastary of the All Seeing Eye. However, at the time I was certain that he would use the Red Friars to make things much worse in Wayreach and things were bad enough. He offered to give me leads on how to prove the Red Friars were corrupted. I was foolish. I took his deal. Thomas chose to come with me, to watch my back. The long term plan was to allow Kal’Dan to get us out of Wayreach, get a lead on the Red Friars and then give Kal’Dan’s agents the slip. My intention was not to work for him, but to use him as a means to an end. Deal with some of the Elder Evils and try to get back and help in Wayreach when you were closer to the monastery and once Bratirion was stronger. The road to hell is paved with good intentions, believe me I know.
We left the city. We met with Kal’Dan’s agent, who was, of course, Rashid. It was a trap, of course. The next day we were told we were being teleported to Sacra Terra. Instead we were teleported to Old Din Gareth. The spellcaster who took us there had been instructed by Kal’Dan to imprison me there. She used Thomas and the threat of death on Old Din Gareth to make me submit. They promised to take Thomas to safety if I complied. So I submitted.
The next thing I knew I was free and being taken to Moon Base Alpha. Klinendekkerdor had intervened on my behalf. He made a deal with Kal’Dan. He convinced Kal’Dan that it didn’t serve any purpose for me to be imprisoned. I was to be held on MBA until the end of the month. I would be given training against the Elder Evils and so my imprisonment would serve a purpose, make me more useful in the fight against the Elder Evils. In exchange, Thomas’ safety was guaranteed. The deal would be void if I left early. I spent my time on MBA training against the Elder Evils.
While I was there I was allowed to look in on Ondoron, but never interact with anyone here. I saw the battle at the Monastery of the All Seeing Eye. The image went black just before the dragon was going to kill Simon. So I saw the consequences of my actions. Later I was told that Takeo, Derek and Simon survived but that Dusan, Malaena and Caiden were raised as undead. I believed this until yesterday. I was also allowed to hear the news from Luminairre about the Lord Knights’ council. That same day I was allowed to see images of the bodies of both Ser Helion Titus and Ser Maximus Aquilinus. The day after I was sent to the front lines of the battle for Heaven.
I served on the front lines from the 30th until an unknown date. There was no sense of time there. I had been promised I would be returned to Ondoron on Darkherald the 1st. I fought the Elder Powers beside seraphim and demons and watchers and Klint’s LGM (Little Green Men). I learned much and gained power. I also began to doubt what I had been told by the watcher of gnomes. It was hard to know who was on which side.
Then one day I was scouting for my team and a figure found me. He told me I was about to be betrayed by my team. They were going to let me die in the next attack. He offered to bring me back to Ondoron. He spoke of fate and he seemed to be Romd. I know now he was really Kal’Dan – again. By going with him I broke the agreement and compromised Thomas’ safety, though at the time I believed my agreement was with his watcher and so he would be safe. Another error. More consequences.
I awoke in Ghoul Reef. I was told they found me on a sinking boat. I’d been unconscious for three days. I awoke on Brightleaf the 38th. The woman who nursed me said I was sunburned and dehydrated when they found me. She figured I’d been on the boat at least a week. I have no idea if I was really on the boat that long, it certainly doesn’t fit my timeline. Bratirion was gone. All the rest of my equipment was recovered. My hosts tried and could not remove the ring that protects me from the Red Friars. They feared I would lose the finger. Later when Simon tried to find me I couldn’t remove it either.
As soon as I could I contacted Simon. Then while he was trying to locate me, Turry showed up. He told the locals I was a missing necromancer from Larecan. I hid while they searched for me. Eventually they found me. The authorities of Ghould Reef caught Turry in a lie and Turry abandoned his forces and took me to a deserted place. He asked me to prove I wasn’t an agent of Kal’Dan or he would kill me. I told him my story and he said he would turn me over to Simon. Then he took me to Saltmourne where I was put under a spell. The rest you know better than I do.
I hope this account is helpful to you as you make your discernments. Know that I see the errors I have made and repent of them, but I recognize that does little to gain your trust. I believe I have intelligence that can be of help to you regarding the Elder Evils, but I also appreciate any information I give you will be suspect. I want nothing more than to be of help to you, but I understand that I have caused so much damage it may seem wiser to … I will abide by whatever decision you make about my fate.
I make only one request. If you can confirm that Thomas is in Old Din Gareth, please, do everything you can to free him.